Love

I love being happy. And I'm the happiest when I'm spending time with the one I love....

Sometimes all you need is to spend some quality time snuggling under a blanket with the one you love. You don't have to go out or spend a lot of money to have a good time. Those things are nice every once in awhile. But spending quality time together just relaxing and talking is so much better.

Especially when you have one of those evenings together where time moves slower and you get to appreciate those moments even longer than normal. Personally, I love having those moments. Spending that time with Eric tonight just made me so happy to be with him. We talked to each other and sometimes picked on each other. But we enjoyed every moment we spent together.

I love him so much and I hope he always remembers how special he is to me....He always has been.  Even when we just started getting to know each other....<3

Happiness

I've been meaning to post in this blog for awhile now,  but I've just been so busy. I should probably mention that after tomorrow, I'll have been dating the guy of my dreams for a whole month.  The way this all happened has been amazing. Eric is a wonderful guy, and I want him to know that. He's been so great to me and has shown me many times that he really cares about me.

Feeling cared about and treated so nicely is an amazing feeling. I really enjoy our time together and being held tightly by the one you love is the best feeling in the world.

I took the love language test and ended up with a tie between quality time and physical touch. To me, getting to experience both of these at the same time is like perfection. I feel so at ease spending time with him. He comforts me and helps me forget all my troubles.

Maybe it's foolish to say that I'm already in love. But I would be lying if I were to say that I haven't been for quite some time....

Feels

Well. That "friend zoning" didn't last long. When you fall asleep on someone it doesn't exactly say that you are "just friends" especially when you start to feeel sick. Like the "butterflies" kind of sick....

Friend Zoned

The Friend Zone.

No one really wants to be in it. Especially if they really like the person who put them there. But sometimes when your love for someone is so strong, you just have to before your emotions make you do something you regret. Whether it is ruining a friendship or hurting a friend.

I "friend zoned" someone the other day that I've had feelings for for about 3 years. If anything is to come of these feelings, I want him to be the one to express them if he ever feels the same again. <3

Welcome to My Life

This is a blog about love and what I am learning/have learned. I warn you that most of it will probably be about a certain guy, but you probably already figured that out. So let's start with a little bit of what I have learned.

Love makes you do crazy things


I know this is true because in order to know what love is, you have to be able to follow your heart. Sometimes your heart is telling you to do things your brain would've thought were crazy. For example: I was out of town visiting some friends and one of my friends asked me if I wanted to hang out with our group of friends back home. Even though it was an hour away, I wanted to spend time with the guy I liked and also my friends. So I drove an hour home, met my friends, and we all hung out, ate dinner, and watched a movie. Then I drove back to where I was staying. My brain was like "that's dumb, you're wasting gas." but my heart said "You need to be there because he needs you." He has been dealing with depression for awhile and one of the things I can't stand is my friends not being happy. So we all shared some laughs and when we were saying goodbye, I had asked him if he was okay while we were hugging. He had looked a bit shook up earlier and I wanted to know if everything was alright. He said he was fine, but that just means he isn't. I've known him too long to accept that he wasn't still thinking about something.

Don't let your feelings get in the way of your friendship


It's even harder to go through life when you have feelings towards someone you are already are close to. They say that eventually two friends will fall for each other, but it's difficult when only one of them has. I understand that completely. I have fallen for one of my best friends, and I have for the last 3 years....It's hard to see them and just be a friend. And it hurts like crazy when I see them suffering or depressed. I just want to hug him and tell him everything is okay. But I still just act like a friend and tell him I care and I'm there for him. Even though I have feelings for him, I continue to try to be the best friend that I can be to him.

It's been 3 years


I first met him 3 years ago. I wasn't very well liked by anyone when I was younger, let alone a boy. It was just a coincidence that we met, but I will never forget that night. It was just a simple hangout, but the following day we were texting all the time. Unfortunately an ex friend came into the situation and ruined it for us. Ever since then there hasn't really been anything between us but a close friendship.